5/6/09

I'm not entirely sure why I never post much of anything on here. All I ever do is rant and rave about things, yet I never classify my thoughts into categories and actually share them. I'm going to attempt to start posting atleast one blog every night, regardless of how pointless and superficial they'll probably become.

With that being said, I'll begin on my slow progression of ruining your life with my opinions and complaints. Today was a fairly boring day like all of the rest. I got up late, got around late, got to school later than I'm used to. I'm starting to realize more and more about myself more and more quickly. I used to preach the whole, "wear your pride on the inside, appearances don't matter" thing all the while never really giving myself half of an earful. I've gotten to the point where I just don't care anymore. I really don't. What's clean is clean. What's on my body, is on my body. It's just fabric. It's not me, and it never will be. There is absolutely no point in trying to impress someone with anything outside of myself. I've wasted so much time in the past years trying to perfect my image, trying to become something that I'm not. If I don't wake up in the morning looking like I walked straight out of this month's issue of Vogue, so be it. That's not who I am. I'm through with trying to cover up who I am to be what you want. Call me beautiful, call me ugly, call me whatever the fuck you want. Atleast at the end of the day I'll look in the mirror and see myself, instead of seven layers of foundation, six shades of blush, a truckload of lipstick, and fake eyelashes. Don't give me the whole, "beauty truly is skin deep" schpeel, because I won't buy it. You think your skin's beautiful? Really? Well so do I, so get the shit off of it. That's all for today.